Holy cow it has been awhile since my last post, like Spring break. Anyways, I thought I better take advantage of this extra free time. There has been multiple times since my last post that I felt called to share something but every time I got on my site I couldn’t put anything into words… I didn’t know how to say how I was feeling.
This semester has been rough to say the least, and no I do not mean rough as in “I have a ton of homework and so many deadlines.” I mean mentally rough. It has been a semester full of major downs and negativity. I continue to be tested in my determination, work ethic, and faith. One bad thing after another seems to be popping up and I have days where I let all of this get to me. Just this past week I fell to the ground crying for 20 minutes after hitting my knee on my desk; I was at that point.
One of the podcasts I listen to (The Joe Rogan Experience) has a recent episode with Kevin Hart in which they talk about our society and negativity. It is the cultural norm for people to be negative about everything! People complain about their jobs, working out, having to pay the bills, etc. This is what we do! We get together for drinks or coffee or lunch and we complain about our lives. When we encounter people that talk about their passions and the things they love, the things that set their souls on fire we see them as some sort of stranger creature. Of course they are different than you!!! But only because they are consciously choosing to focus on their positives! No need to be fooled into thinking that just because these people seem to be happy and enjoying life, their life is perfect. They too have things to complain about but they know that complaining will do them no good. It just keeps them stuck on the negative.
I think this is why I have been so confused with how I am feeling and where I am at in life…While there have been long periods of negativity this semester, there have also been beautiful highs. Little rays of sunshine breaking through the storm. They pull me back up and remind me that no trial is forever and that God does see us suffering. Life is full of ups and downs; and for some reason, we tend to cling to the downs more than anything.
This Easter, today, I challenge you to remember the blessings you are given, not just every day but through your trials. The blessings that renew your faith in the one who made the greatest sacrifice of all. I challenge you to be open and honest with the thoughts you allow to become a reality. And I hope and pray that you are able to find some blessings that can carry you through your trials because life is a beautiful thing when you stop complaining and open your eyes.
Mindfully Marissa 